This is something I’m beginning—
a Sunday pause. A week in pieces.
Not a summary so much as a gathering. A way to see how the puzzle starts to cohere—how one story echoes inside another, how poems follow grief like shadows, how fiction starts to sound like memory.
Some weeks don’t build. They loosen.
Not in collapse—just in the quiet undoing of what no longer fits.
This one began with stillness and ended with something like reckoning.
Not loud. Not neat.
Just a soft question, half-asked:
What are you still carrying that was never yours?
I didn’t plan for these pieces to speak.
But they do.
They hum. They shimmer across each other.
Snow, rope, breath, ledger, silence.
Threads pulling taut, then slackening.
A woman erases herself—but not all the way.
A boy holds on too tight.
A man stops reading the room.
A father says almost nothing, and holds everything.
If there’s a shape forming this week, it might be this:
– How do we loosen what the body still braces for?
– How do we exit without disappearing?
– What’s the difference between being seen, and being consumed?
Some silences return the breath.
This one arrived after reading about empaths and solitude—but it didn’t feel like theory. It felt like memory.
A man who mistook stillness for safety.
Who learned to brace before the storm ever hit.
Not saved—just seen.
Just asked. Just met.
Part 1
Iris isn’t unraveling—she’s editing.
Returning books without logging them. Circling her name, then crossing it out.
This wasn’t collapse.
Just a soft, deliberate no.
I've known that kind of retreat.
The kind no one notices—because you were already halfway gone.
Part 2
Ezra doesn’t try to fix her absence.
He notices what she didn’t erase.
A Merwin line underlined.
A peace lily turning toward the light.
It made me think:
Maybe some part of us wants to be read—not in what we explain, but in what we quietly leave behind.
A school memory, not the sentimental kind.
A falling book. A snooker cue. A silence that taught more than the curriculum.
The lesson wasn’t in what was said.
It was in what wasn’t.
Survival, silence, complicity.
How we learned to hurt and protect each other—at the same time.
Rachel and David don’t explode. They orbit.
A coffee goes untouched. A blanket gets smoothed.
The unsaid fills the room faster than speech ever could.
I’ve known that kind of distance—the kind that looks like showing up, but never lands.
Some silences don’t ask to be broken.
They just want someone to stay.
Ralph doesn’t ask for attention.
But he anchors the room.
This week, he became the gravitational pull of Holding On.
Stillness as strength. Presence as a kind of promise.
What began as a childhood memory—snow, boots, shame—became something else.
A sled. A rule. A rope.
Don’t let go.
And I didn’t.
This piece spirals back into Unbecoming.
The way performance becomes obedience.
The way silence becomes a survival strategy.
This one arrived like a tide.
Not loud—just steady.
A story about mending—not fixing.
About returning to a version of connection that no longer needs proof.
Sometimes the smallest bridges hold the most weight.
This came after rereading the sled story.
After Kathy Parker.
After asking a machine to name the patterns I’ve lived inside for years.
Hyper-independence.
Disappearing in ways that win praise.
Carrying weight misread as love.
This isn’t a vow.
It’s a rhythm.
Unbecoming the man no one came back for.
Still here.
Still listening for the voice I muted.
Echoes and Edges
No conclusions this week. Just edges.
A ledger closed. A tea ring fading in the light.
A sled rope let go.
A name half-erased.
A hand that flinched—then stayed.
Sometimes the work isn’t to transform.
It’s to translate.
Thanks for listening with me.
Let’s keep watching the shapes form.
—Robert
The beauty of coming to what you hadn't seen. It's a testament to you being open to seeing yourself, and I hope you're very proud of yourself for that, because it's not easy to do so. Thank you for continuing to share your journey in real time. ❤️